I want to write private notes. Great letters to old friends which express all the things I'm for one reason or another still shy about writing right here. I've always been skittish talking about girls in the thick of it. After the fact, in the lens of history, I'll go over things. But I don't often dive in to the workings of my heart (or my hips) in public without the comfortable distance and respectibility which introspection brings. I find the kiss and tell to be generally cheap.

So I want to write private notes to girls. Old girls and new girls; curiosities and rememerences and flirtations on the sly. I also want to pitch woo, to use an old outdated phrase, and I that's something which needs cover. Romance implies a certain kind of seclusion, an enticing element of closeness and privacy. You need curtains and candles and music and time; or at the very least you need some good sheets to hide under, though those always get tangled. It's better when you have the whole set of freedoms; no restrictions and ample energy. But I digress.

I want to write private notes. I've been thinking about myself as a writer, how I feel stagnant a lot of the time, and wondering if maybe become an electronic man of letters wouldn't be a way to keep my creative fires high. I could perhaps delve more deeply into fanciful writing, letting a bit more of my pent up internal fuel into the stream. But I want to start out with something a little more covert. Maybe I'll make my own email list that people can opt-in on, something which can carry juicy bits and wild renderings. My own foray down the the Rageboy path. Maybe there will be a secret website -- someplace where the full life of my mind can live. Maybe that someplace could be out here in the same old spot, with some kind of password or permission...

But I want to write private notes, and I think there's a reason for that. And I think that's where I will start.