"Undermining my electoral viability since 2001."

Enter The KoneZone -- Password is my middle name

Notes from the KoneZone:

Lately it occurs to me that this has been a long strange trip and there are about 10 million girls around my age in this here country and a lot of 'em are cute and I haven't had any real good fun for a while. Real Good Fun, maybe. It aughtta be capitalized.

It's funny, you know. Because last night I found myself at this party at Kim's house in the East Bay, and it was pleasently and un-pleasently like high school. I didn't really know anyone there other than a few good friends, but everyone was vaguely attractive and I was feeling out of it and slightly emotional, and I had to keep going back outside to sit down and collect myself and repeatedly come to the realization that I was not "living in the moment."

And that's the thing. When you're not really "in the moment," it's hard to have Real Good Fun. It speaks to a couple of my basic axioms: Life is holy and every moment precious -- which is both the reason for and primary entry point to the closest thing I know to enlightenment. And Presence is perfection, which is similar, but serves a practical method as well as being a useful diagnostic tool.

Lemme break that verbage down:

You can always ask yourself, "am I present?" And yourself is going to know if you're where you need to be. That's basic. You gotta trust it.

So anyway, this gets kinda mad personal and shit, because there are certain things that would take a lot of telling to unpack cleanly, and a lot of the stories aren't mine alone. I can't rightly write about some of the more saucy (and [in]formative) escapades I've had this year because the stories aren't entirely mine to tell. Some might take offense. I'll need to get clearance from people to mention things, or find a way to literarily obscure them. Or both. Probably both.

But confession is good, so here's a little bit of the truth. The last time I had sex with a girl was before I went back east for the RNC. It was wild, but not in the end something that made me feel better than I felt before. It was kind of draining, and at the same time even though it was pretty hard, it wasn't quite enough. In any event, since then I've kind of been flippantly casting my gaze about wherever I am; hungry eyes, but also wavering, unsure, heasitant.

You know, on some level I serioosuly beleive that this will get better if Kerry wins. Somehow that will give me some of my mojo back. I've been pretty deflated since Dean flamed out; maybe a change in political fortunes will have an echo elsewhere. No matter what happens, the presence of more personal freedom -- the election being over -- will bring welcome room for self-examination and change.

And I also really do think Kerry is going to win at this point. Honestly. I'm going to send a big message about it tomrrow. I'm willing to stake something on it, some hope. I've come to accept that it's not something I really have much conscious control over at this point; all I can do is the same as any of you: do all you can to get your people out there to do it... still, I'm feeling good.

At the same time, I do feel nervous about trusting that guy... but I really like what my mom said. She said, "remember when Clinton was elected, and everthing was about how he was 'my generation's' president? That wasn't true. He set himself up like that, but I never felt that he represented my generation. Kerry does. He's still got that in him somewhere."

Yeah... maybe. That would be nice, and I even kind of believe it -- check the clips from "going upriver" here; let me know if I should annotate them. But actually, I'm more excited about the fact that we might get to completely discredit the Bush administration by launching a series of investigations into their misdeeds so that we don't repeat history again. And maybe we'll get some shit-hot sunshine laws enacted to make sure the people can watchdog the whole process; take it back to the old-school. Transparency, bitches! That and cooler voting laws so we can do same day registration. And a popular revolt against the media establishment.

You know I once blogged to Sumner Redstone -- CEO of Viacom -- "Fuck you, Sumner. I will burn you down?" I meant that. Some days I really do want to be a HST-like figure on the internet. Justin Hall is my blogfather, don't forget, and he had more fun than me on halloween. I've got plenty more room to grow. But to really chase that dream, I'll have to wait until I'm in a position to really cut loose. That was late 20s for Hunter.

Interlude: here's what The Doctor actually said about his process...


I have stolen more quotes and thoughts and purely elegant starbursts of writing from the book of Revelation than anything else in the English language." He elaborates that "you cannot call the desk at the Mark Hopkins or the Las Vegas Hilton or the Arizona Biltmore and have the bell captain bring up the collected works of Sam Coleridge or Stephen Crane at three o'clock in the morning[… ]It simply takes too much time, and if they've been sending bottles of Chivas up to your room for the past three days, they get nervous when you start demanding things they've never heard of[…]If there is a God, I want to thank Him for the Gideons, whoever they are. I have dealt with some of His other messengers and found them utterly useless. But not the Gideons. They have saved me many times, when nobody else could do anything but mutter about calling Security on me unless I turned out my lights and went to sleep like all the others…"

He would have loved google, so say nothing of technorati...

As I like to recall it, he got married and that only made him more weird, more free I suppose. If that kind of thing really worked out, man, there's no telling where I could go. Totally free of the need to chase women, all that nervous entropy gone; no more soul-drag to hold me down. Oh, man I could soar if it really worked out for me. I know I could. Of course, Hunter also got divorced, and recently married his assistant who's less than half his age, and I think that's rather something not to emulate. So it's not all a bowl of cherries.

The sentiment lives in me though; I could soar. Outide of being the most romantic damn thing I've written in the past eight months, this raises a really interesting question: why don't I let myself be fooled? Why don't I let myself be won over by someone else? It's not a really arbitrary question. I'm a good actor. I know how to nuzzle up into a fantasy world. I do it as art from time to time. I could do it in the name of fun at least once, right?

Well, for now no. It's just not happening. It hasn't felt like fun the last few times I'd tried getting lured into someone else's field, and Saturday night I actually ran away from that kind of situation. I met someone who was about as hungry as I was, but it just didn't feel right so I actually literally ran and hid.

I've got some work to do before I'm there. Hopefully part of that work is taking baby steps back to being ready for bliss by learning how to have fun again. I really would like that. We'll see how it feels in a week

Click Here and see if you don't get just a little bit excited. Just a little weensy bit.

Love you all!
-OJ

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Rob Courdrey: Internet Exclusive Video

Internet Only Video Clip

This is new to me, though I'm sure it's been found before. It's interesting, because it's pretty good, though still a form that's trying to get right. Videoblogging for comedy writers would be a really interesting thing to try sometime.

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Rob Courdrey: Internet Exclusive Video

Internet Only Video Clip

This is new to me, though I'm sure it's been found before. It's interesting, because it's pretty good, though still a form that's trying to get right. Videoblogging for comedy writers would be a really interesting thing to try sometime.

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Reason #371 Wolf Blitzer Should Retire

People sometimes wonder why I dislike so much the newsmedia. Here's a very very specific example. Check this little clip from CNN. Blizter, while leading in to a talking head from Bush/Cheney04, plays a bit of the latest Bin Laden tape where he references Bush's reading "My Pet Goat" on 9/11. Blitzer's comment, "it sounds like Bin Laden's been watching Michael Moore's movies."

Here's my question: where or when in the process of dry-humping the half-conscious body of "journalism" did it occur to Blitzer that F9/11 was the most likely source for Bin Laden to get this information? And even if somehow in the white-flash of orgasm you did reach this conclusion, what possible relevance could the source of Bin Laden's knowledge of Bush's Tuesday-morning reading have in this situation? Really. I honestly want to know what the fuck he was thinking.

I realize it was news to many Americans who saw that film that the Prez remained paralyzed for a good seven minutes after learning that the towers had been hit, but just because the mainstream newsmedia elected not to air that footage in the name of national unity, that doesn't exactly make it a secret. They have the internet over at Al-Qaeda too. I'm sure they're familiar with Google, you pompous jackass. 9/11 was their coup de grace, their moment of triumph. One can assume they probably have the whole thing researched out the wazoo in terms of how it happened and what went down after.

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Let's Blogroll

Never Forget: Internets Vets for Truth

A good collection of video content online. Nice use of the medium.

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Let's Blogroll

Never Forget: Internets Vets for Truth

A good collection of video content online. Nice use of the medium.

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The Fully Functioning Left?

Kos has a story up, mostly sourced from a piece in the LA times, about how the America Votes coalition is helping to create an intigrated, fully-functioning left.

This might catch me some flack, but I have to call bullshit.

America Votes is a well-intentioned organization, but I do not think it has performed well or is a model that should be extended without significant overhaul. I'm not saying this out of any sort of spite or malace; in real terms I have had very little interaction with people in charge of AV. I'm saying this because I know that there are limited resources for left-wing politics in 2005, and I don't want these resources to be mis-applied.

This election it cost $50,000 for an organization to get a "seat at the table" with America Votes. This means being in on weekly conference calls and monthly meetings in DC, which serve some purpose in terms of allowing groups with parallel interests to keep in touch with one another. However, the idea that this was worth 50 grand to any of the fine organizations involved is ludicrous.

My experience is on the young end of the spectrum, so perhaps it's skiewed, but my organization, Music for America, got almost zero value from these meetings. Our meaningful -- and in many cases quite productive! -- coordination with other groups happened for the most part at the field level, and those contacts that manifested nationally happened the way any other contact in our generation emerges: someone picked up the phone and called someone else, or sent an email. You don't need a $50k seat at a table to do that.

The one thing of real value AV provided was a semi-working voterfile. Now, we aren't using this, and many of the other groups have their own systems at the field level -- and in reality this probably says more about the failure of the DNC to coordinate hard data than anything else -- but for groups that do direct voter-contact and turnout this probably provided some value. I know at least two groups whose state-level campaigns are using the AV voterfile tool, to which MfA was able to conribute some 20,000 contacts. That was nice, but again, we didn't need to spend $50k to give other people our data.

On issues of real organizational/operational coordination, message, press, and shared access to power, I didn't see a lot going on. What I saw was a lot of stuff that reminded me in a negative way of corporate America. The particular anecdote that kept coming to mind was from one time in late 2000 when I was trying to do a bit of consulting work for Gerber (the baby-food giant). In an unguarded moment just after a meeting, the senior VP of marketing and apparent heir to the CEO spot said, "you know, all the people in this building [the entire executive staff] could disappear into thin air and the company would go on fine for years."

That's the sense I got from AV: well-meaning, but ultimately innefectual (and expensive) executive management.

Again, its perfectly plausable that some of the other groups like the Sierra Club or Emily's List got enormous value that I am ignorant of from the meetings. However, from where I sit, there wasn't much going on. If it wasn't all so well-meaning, I would say it was bullshit. I think the resources and talent, the time and energy, could have been much better applied. Moreover, I feel that (again for us) the AV organization even got in the way.

Specific example: there was a group called the "Young Voter Alliance" which was a cluster of some other youth orgs. This group of groups included our pals at The League of Pissed Off Voters, who we work with quite a lot. On occasion, the YVA rep say things to AV that were directly contrary to the statements made by people who were actually working for indyvoter kids, and as these things tend to work out, the kids actually doing the work were right. For us, the America Votes environment was not really one of trust.

Also, I know that other orgs experienced internal fissures, power struggles, confusion, etc, and to the best of my knowledge AV did nothing to address or mitigate this. In fact, my guess is that the environment created by exclusive meetings between "the people who matter" in Washington DC probably exacerbated this kind of problem more than anything else. If you're an org with an internal power struggle, who do you send? Who gets to be on the call? What do you say?

Power games seemed to happen a lot in that kind of world. It becomes less about getting anything done and more about being right and justifying your existence/paycheck/position of authority. If we're seriously in the business of getting shit done, we've got to drop the pretense and keep our focus on reality, on what matters. I know my Executive Director was going to write a fairly critical evaluation of AV as part of their feedback process. I helped her find some nice things to say after another more seasoned pol asked her, "what are you hoping to accomplish with this?"

The clear implication was that this was an organization which was run by some people who we want to have on our side, and pissing them off by telling them they weren't doing anything that was helping our work wasn't in our own best interest. So, like I said, we found a few nice things to say.

In retrospect, that was the wrong thing to do. It wasn't honest. In theory, groups like AV should be important workhorses providing leadership, expertise and actively pushing for coordination between its member organizations and the wider left-wing network. In practice, something significantly less than that happened; and unless we confront this reality, we're going to hit a lower point of potential than otherwise might be possible.

Knowing what I know now, it's hard not to see the LA Times push as a PR offensive by the AV people designed to stake some claim to the smaller pile of resources (money) that will be available in the next calendar year. I think that for us, giving money to America Votes again would be a mistake. What should be funded instead are organizations which actively work to correct the now glaring flaws in our electoral process, and to construct powerful/flexibe data-sharing platform(s) that are truly of "enterprise level."

Operational coordination works much more effectively at the field level, and message coordination requires leadership in addition to focus groups. Most importantly, national coordinating groups need to provide some minimum of political focus in order to become catalysts for action. Perhaps more so than any other group, America Votes seemed to purely be an anti-bush coalition; as such, in a week it's reason to exist will have passed, and without significant overhaul, so should the organization.

I think we're on our way, but it's still a long road to a fully functioning left. Meaninful coordination at the field level, positive agenda-setting, joint press operations, a forum for best practices and a source for political experience and leadership: these are all going to be pressing needs in 2005, and I'm sorry to say that from my experience America Votes gets at best a C+ on these counts.

I know this is just politics, but C+ isn't going to cut it. This ain't no time for grade inflation, people. We got to keep it real.

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Shout Out to Boston

You did it, you glorious massholes. Hats off.

Lunar eclipse, Boston wins, Sharon passes withdrawl from Gaza, Kerry looking good to unseat Bush?

Bring on the rain of frogs!

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Bush Campaign Web Site Rejects Non-US Visitors

Netcraft is an authoritative source.

Netcraft monitors web site response times from seven locations, including four within the United States and three in other countries. Since Monday morning, requests to GeorgeWBush.com from stations in London, Amsterdam and Sydney, Australia have failed, while the four U.S. monitoring stations show no performance problems. Web users in Canada report they are able to visit the site.

Weird.

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